The Bush Is Always Burning
Starting something is easy. Publishing something for the world to see and scrutinize… now that’s hard.
Even as I’m writing this, I am scared. I am scared that I will be unfairly scrutinized and that people will misunderstand what I’m trying to do here. It’s not like we all haven’t seen it happen many times before.
Someone presents a new perspective around a closely guarded ideology and they are called a heretic, their character is called into question, they’re marked, pushed out and pushed aside.
No one wants that to happen to them. I certainly know that I do not.
I also believe that I have something of value to say.
There’s this story that the Rabbis would tell about how Moses found the burning bush in the desert. The ancient rabbis would say that the Bush was always burning BECAUSE Moses had a burning desire inside him to see his people delivered from their oppressors.
And, that’s why Moses encountered the Almighty that day.
The bush that has always been burning inside me is the desire to explore faith with an unquenchable curiosity AND intellectual integrity.
In my experience, those two things don’t always exist.
And before you think i’m judging, trust me, I get it. Many Pastors can’t ask hard questions of their tradition of have moments of doubt because there is a denominational line they must walk.
I make my living in the secular world and I am not afraid to loose my job because I doubt my faith. But, if you’re a pastor, you don’t always have that same privilege.
Additionally, we seem to always need to know the correct answer. We have to point out the bad guys so we can call ourselves the good guys.
But what if that’s not the highest purpose of our spiritual journey? What if having all the answers isn’t the point at all?
For months now I’ve had this idea to create content so that people can journey with me. I had no idea what to call it but I knew one thing,
I DID NOT want to be a pastor.
That feeling contradicted the desire I’ve had for almost my entire life. As far back as I can remember, I always wanted to preach. Maybe it was because my mom always told me that I would be good at it. Who knows where that desire came from 🤷♂️.
I don’t know where it came from but I do know that it is there. It has always been there. And I’m pretty confident by this point in my life, that it’s not going away.
So this is my response to my burning bush.
I decided to call it, I am not your pastor because my intention is not to give answers but rather to raise questions. This is something that I hope to do with a community of people and not for a community of people. I am not a pastor, a guru, a scholar, or the Easter bunny. I am simply a person who is willing to dance with a tradition that is thousands of years old.
On this site, I will be publishing blog posts as well as a podcast (coming soon). The purpose is to explore faith, affirm truth no matter where it’s found, all while maintaining intellectual integrity.
I hope you will take the challenge to ask the hard questions. To find joy in the uncertainty, to laugh at the things you can explain into marvel in the beauty of this messy and complicated life that we are all blessed to have.
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I hope you will.