What if you didn’t need a pastor to start your spiritual journey? What if spiritual directors like pastors, mentors, peers, culture, friends and family were additions to the most important part of your journey? You.

This site exists for that purpose. To walk with you. Not to tell you what to believe. Not to change your mind. Not to “convert” you (whatever that even means).

Your spiritual journey is yours. So here, you have found a safe place. A place to ask questions, interrogate reality, de-construct, re-construct and be in community with others who are courageous enough to explore their spirituality without sacrificing their intellectual integrity.

A few thoughts about exploration and integrity:

Growing up, I was taught that there are specific (and universal) answers for EVERYTHING. There are absolute truths that should not under ANY circumstances be questioned. As a kid, this made sense. When I was told how the word world worked, I believed it. Until, I grew up and found myself in a messy, confusing, complicated world that did not always work the way that my Sunday school teacher told me it would.

After life punched 🤜🤜🤜 🤕 me in the mouth a few hundred times, I started to realize something. As I wiped the blood And tears and dirt from my experiences, I realized that the world is bigger than the confining faith that I was given. In fact, God is bigger than the confining faith that I was given. And the more I engaged the Bible the more I realized how beautifully diverse, unbelievably complex, and unashamedly contradictory it really was.

It made me reconsider the way I thought about truth. I started asking myself,

Can I with intellectual integrity believe this actually happened this way?

For example, I’m not sure that I can wholeheartedly believe that snakes talk 🐍, donkeys talk 🐴, fish swallow the people 🐳, and God regretted making mankind and decided to drown everyone (when the children) 🌊🌊🌊👶👧👨‍👩‍👧‍👦👨‍👧‍👦👩‍👦‍👦👨‍👨‍👦‍👦👨‍👨‍👧‍👦👩‍👩‍👧‍👧👩‍👦👨‍👨‍👦👩‍👩‍👦👨‍👩‍👦‍👦👨‍👩‍👧🌊🌊🌊

I had to admit that I did not believe that all of this had to literally happen in order for me to love God and The Bible.

My western rational mind would not allow me to keep my integrity and continue to believe in the faith that calls me to shut my mind off and just blindly trust.

So I had to start thinking about truth differently when it came to the Christian tradition that I had grown to love so much.

I had to stop asking myself did it literally happen exactly like that and start asking myself,

Is the meaning true?

When I started asking this question, it’s like the light switch came on 💡. The Bible became relevant and new again. I didn’t have to struggle with blind faith because this beautiful ancient tradition became more real than it had ever been.

I made one other decision:

I decided to start affirming truth no matter where I found it. No more trying to “convert” or convince people that my way and my transition was the best.

Side note: Did you know there are over 3,000 Christian denominations? Yeah, you’re right. Your denomination probably has it all figured out 🧐.

The beautiful thing about faith and spirituality is no one has a monopoly on the truth. In my coaching practice, I’ve had the privilege to coach people from all walks of life and from many different faith traditions, nationalities, orientations, and personalities.

The one thing I know for sure is there a beauty in every type.

Let’s be honest, I inherited (and so did you) A belief system and a worldview because of the place I was born, the people I grew up with and around, the time in which I grew up, as well as other factors. It’s hard to believe that I would have the same faith if I had been born in another country, in a different time, or two different parents with different ways of seeing the world.

So, on the site, we will affirm truth no matter where we find it.

I AM NOT YOUR PASTOR exists to explore Our spirit without having to put our brains to sleep. It exists so we can ask tough questions. Not necessarily so that we will find the answer but rather so that we can stand in awe of this creation that we have been given and this experience that we somehow are able to consciously observe.

This is the journey that we are compeled to explore as we understand the connection between who we are, who we are meant to be, and the spirit that is animating everything from the beginning of time to the end.

Let’s go on this journey together.

✌️& ❤️



About Me:

Hi, I’m Doug. Ever since I can remember, I wanted to be a pastor. As I grew up, I realized my natural curiosity and my unwillingness to simply accept a believe system just because I was told to, didn’t fit in many denominational structures.

So now, I am a professional coach. I make my living ministering to many of the people the church does not have access to. Sometimes it’s because they’ve been marginalized, other times it’s because they I from a different culture and most often it’s just because they don’t go to church.

I live by and teach biblical principles in a secular environment I just don’t always reference the verse in chapter.

My coaching is about practical application and not platitudes and inflexible ideologies. Like Jesus taught his disciples to pray, I do my best to create environment for God‘s kingdom to come down to earth here and now.

for more about me, visit DougStewart919.com